My life always seem to be about my weight which has been up and down all my life. If I added up all the days and weeks I had worried about my weight, I would be able see how much time I have wasted.
I have been slim and fairly fit but now I am very unfit and very overweight. I have really bad arthritis, and while I know its not an excuse, it does not help me to get fit or do fitness. I can't sleep well because of the pain and then I am worn out all day. I really want to lose weight and I can try but I seem to end up back at the start again.
I have stopped wanting to go out and feel better staying at home, this is where I feel safe. I have such low confidence that a social event is not fun. I never feel like I look my best and always seem to get stuck with the skinny guest.
My husband has no clue when I say I don't want to attend, he just thinks I am being a pain.
I pretend I am fine and happy, and that goes against me at times. I don't look like I need help and people often want me to give more than I can.
So I am dong a blog post to say I can't sleep. I cant get back on my diet and Low Battery is so true right now. Fear not i am sure I will be jollyjilly soon.
oh Jill I feel for you, I'm a bit of a lump myself right now and although I intend to do something about it, I am confident in the knowledge that I am a nice person as are you, don't let the negative thoughts get you down. You don't need to be skinny to be a wonderful person. I'd rather be fat than nasty any day. Chin up Aunty Jill you are beautiful person and we love you xxxx
ReplyDeleteLou I'm sure you look fab ! Like you I want to do more but never seem to get there. I I'm soooooo happy for Natalie as she's lost 9st but it also is hard when I am stuck.
DeleteYou are right who I am will never change
Thank you for your support it made me start the day with a smile. Love you all loads xxxxx
I know exactly how you feel Jill, i stopped wanted to go out and now no-one asks me..
ReplyDeletei do hope you feel a bit brighter soon xx
Thanks jac you know you are always welcome to visit anytime. 2 old recluse's together lol
DeleteI hope you feel better soon! You have a wonderful blog!! I'm your newest GFC follower from the “I love my post” blog hop - this is my blog if you wanted to follow back: godsgrowinggarden.com
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Thanks Angie I am glad you enjoyed the blog
DeleteI went through this slump for about 2 years, and gained 50 pounds. It was horrible and I know exactly how you feel. I didn't go to a friend's wedding because of how felt I thought I looked, and I ended up losing the friend over it.
ReplyDeleteThe time will come when you feel like you're ready to lose the weight and get back on track. I did and I lost those 50 pounds. Just remember that it doesn't define who you are, but if it's making you miserable, then change something! Start small.
FYI: I'm visititing from the Blog till you Drop weekend blog hop. :-)
Hi Lisa well done losing those 50 pounds. I will keep on pushing on lol
DeleteOh sweety, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I'm sure you're a gorgeous woman - both inside and out - even with this weight. I'll be praying for your emotions, dear!
ReplyDeleteThank you Susannah for your kind words. I will always smile lol
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