For me fear has an altogether meaning. My life has been a big fear of myself. I have had weight issues since I was around 5 years old. Not from eating really as I always had a healthy diet, my body just (and still does) fights with me on weight. It turned me into the girl with no confidence and the girl who wasted life dreaming of being slim. Heck even when I was slim I still thought I was overweight.
The years of the school bullies who made my life hell with the constant jabs about my weight made me the person I am today. Until 1994 i was slim and fit but then bad health seemed to slip in and when it did life soon changed.
I gained a huge amount of weight and this weight had knock on effects in all areas. The weight made the pain issues hard but not moving also makes them hard. So you are between a rock and a hard place.
I have always had a fear of stepping out there and showing my real feelings. I put on a great act as a confident person when under it all my little feet are flying!
You would think at my age I would say " so what" and get on with life but its so hard to break away from that locked box.
Just a week ago I was on holiday and we walked past the gym. It was full of young men and women with lovely bodies all working out. It struck me just how much I used to enjoy that and how darn sad I was that I could not do it anymore. I stood there like a big twit and cried I guess I was crying for the slim me and the one who had so much time to do stuff.
There is a saying about what to tell you 16 yr old self ........
By the time you read this you will be older, you will have a grown up family of two beautiful children who you love more and more each day. You will also have two beautiful grandchildren who love with all your heart.
You must enjoy each day and not live in fear of what may happen.
You need to live for today and not live in the past.
Forget years gone and concentrate on whats to come.
Stop being scared to show the real you.
You are a kind and sensitive person and a lovely person.
Tell yourself every day just those facts and feel no fear!